Abandonment of the Game of Fools

It is illogical, it is improbable, it is impossible, all afterthoughts following diseased filled thoughts. Yet, is it not through the illogical improbability of an impossibility that I am here now? Perhaps foolishness is directing me, but then again, perhaps not. The sudden outbursts of emotion leave me drained, and I am utterly disgusted. I refuse to blend in with the blandness, I am too accustomed to the difference. Though I have no proof, only weary facts and an odd feeling, I can't help but feel, right. There should be nothing left, nothing at all, only the right state of mind. I am tired of the pangs, the wonder, just show me what I need to see, let me see to understand. For as of now, all I see is a shroud of uncertainty, you are laced with it, you cannot hide it.

Conclusion: I refuse to have it happen to me, I have worked too hard. Nothing will be missed under my keen gaze, nothing will go unchecked. The walls that were once structured, and strong have been taken down piece by piece, revealing my true nature. Yet at the slightest indication, it can be rebuilt, brick by brick, I will not be tormented. If by now, the battle is not yet won, then I fear the worst, that I might have to begin now.

The Mind of You

Its time, realization must occur now. Advice and quotes are but meaningless whispers in an increasingly loud setting. I have without a doubt, full confidence in you, in the fact you understand what you want, regardless of what it is. Search yourself, you will find that confusion is shallow, and that it is unable to penetrate deep into your mind. Your wants, your needs, are clear, but will mean nothing until you find the will to acknowledge them. Bravery will be tested, trust in yourself to make the decision, trust in yourself to take that chance at happiness, and I promise you, you will have no regret. Disregard advice aimed simply to align, and quotes that are so exquisitely fitted to everything in this world, rendering them useless, listen only to your mind. You know what you want, stop thinking about anything else, stop thinking about anyone else, this is yours, only yours, yours to take or yours to ponder.

Conclusion: I do not possess the ability to gaze deep into your mind and truly aid you. However from a bystanders point of view, I can only say, trust yourself. There are too many factors to consider about everything, and to sit there and rethink all of them, will quite honestly leave you like me, a teenager with too many white hairs. Factors such as time, consequences, guilt, me and him, are so insignificant to the emotions that you genuinely feel. This is all easier said than done, I understand, but let your mind regress, let it breathe, I know you will find what your mind already knows. I trust you to do this, a task that is impossible unless you trust yourself.